Tuesday, April 17, 2001

Well well.... stuck in my room again... trying to get some networking information into my brain... there seems to be this HUGE block obstructing that flow of information.. Either i'm stupid or something... but I really can't seem to get anything into my HUGE but really EMPTY brain. ARGH!!!! frustrating isn't it? What makes things worst is that I keep getting disconnecting from ICQ and when you live in a hostel without a phone.. ICQ is VERY IMPORTANT!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~!!!!
Today it rains... went for a job interview this morning. I thought it went quite well. In another week's time, My exams would have ended already. FINALLY, the semester ends. Well, something has happened in these past few days. I seemed to have drifted away from the group of friends that i have been hanging out with. Especially the girls... Darren, one of the guysm, says that it is most probably because i'm attached. And that it's natural. What crap..! I don't think it's fair. It's not as though i never made an effort to go out with them. It's not like i have gave them up to spend time with my boyfriend. They simply left me out. Well, i was thinking of celebrating my 21st birthday this year with them. But... i guess i changed my mind. I rather save the money... i will just have something small.
It's sad you know. That i don't really have many friends. Ever since from young. There are times when i just feel all alone. Either that or feel like i'm stuck in a group of superficial friends. People who don't care a shit about how you really are. They just think being in your company is 'cool' Stucks!